You couldn’t live

Those days seem so long ago

But i knew before you passed

You lived life with to much passion 

and your fire burned to fast

I wasnt ready for it to be over

For my reality to end

I wasnt ready for my childhood

To tell me it was pretend

And the obstacles you faced

Were to much to endure

I always knew you would make an impact

I didn’t know you’d be the storm

You couldnt live through fatal depression

You couldn’t live with the past

You didnt want to live with your thoughts

You saw life as to much of a task

Now im trying to find your purpose

And I’m talking to your ghost

None of it seems worth it

But this life won’t let me go

Your everything and nothing

Now that you no longer bleed

You tried telling me for your whole life

There’s nothing wrong with me

But then tell me why you did it

Why did u have to die

Why did you have to leave me

For me to finally feel alive

Could we not have lived together

Couldn’t my heart stay whole

I keep feeling something left behind

And I moved over for your soul

I no longer see you when I close my eyes

I open them and your not there

I keep screaming at the top of my lungs

I wasn’t ready

It’s not fair

But i know you havent left me

Your the reason i can’t die

Now i kkow that if i kill muself

Im commiting your suicide

I dont want to be immortal

I want to be with you

Why did you have a say

And I don’t get to choose

I live every day closer

To knowing how you felt

Could we both be living our nightmare

Just to give reason to someone else