Drug induced toxicity

You put yourself through so much

basically for the hell of it

He’s already admitting his guilt

when he says neither of you are celibate

You just somebody holding a place

But you’re not getting any benefits

You can make other friends

but you’ll never hear the end of it

He says you did

You know you didn’t

Your a lying bitch

You don’t want to love the idiot

it’s always the same old song

He’s always been the one accusing

He’s been doing it all along

But doesn’t that make you wonder

If not you then who is it that’s done wrong

But when he denies you affection

he gets mad when you stay calm

He wants you perceived as crazy

because then they will all take his side

It doesn’t matter what you do for him

he’s a waste of a ride or die55

At least once when you leave him

He’s going to threaten suicide

And you walk across an entire town

Just to make sure he’s alive

Eventually that will change

he’ll say that he would rather you be dead

And he’ll make you question everything

but nobody else heard what he said

You start to question yourself

You start to question your friends

Pretty soon you’ve turned into

What at first was just pretend

You start seeking treatment

He says it’s the drug that made you insane

It’s funny because how you see it

It didn’t go that way

You remember everything accurately

and it was him who pushed you away

But when you tried to remind him

I guess you’re being a bitch today

Because that’s not something he wants to hear and he leaves you all alone

He wants to make you feel worthless

To where he has to block your phone

Because you just want some assurance

that he loves you more than he shows

The whole time that he hid you

he tells everyone you just aa hoe

Because that’s all you really are to him

It’s not the same as it was

You were everything he wanted

but he was scared of love

He didn’t want to lose you

so he made you lose yourself

And now he’ll always look for you

when he is with someone else

But he’s never going to be content with them because he won’t feel the way it felt

When he had everything he ever wanted

but he didn’t want to be held

It’ll never be the way it was before

because neither of you are the same self

You’ll realize you’ll never fit the same

think of walking away from him

and being by yourself As before he drug you through hell

We might be able to revive you

But you have to leave him with the hand d

He dealt

Soon that pain in your stomach will fade

When you think about the worst fear you ever felt

When you

Remember you’re not doing it alone

As long as you get up when their still able to help

Or you can let it kill you

That’s not a story I m willing to tell