Can’t stay sober

On my worst days I have  to try to forget the fact that you lived
because if I can do that I can forget that you did what you did
I know it was because you thought you were the reason I lost my kid
So you made sure that was the last sober thing that you ever did

Evan Williams and Jack Daniels if you’re sober take two sips
when the whiskey isn’t strong enough you chase it with a hit
You’ll do anything to feel nothing
Or something different than this
You’re happy that they don’t love you you

won’t be somebody missed

you just a heroin junkie and you can’t get out off the floor
You haven’t slept in days and you don’t want to anymore
You walk around in a daze you don’t know what life has in store
You say you tried it all but you never tried sober before

I know you’re going to hate it but you have to get lost in a room with yourself
Yes you’re gonna feel all of the insults

you have to wish you were somebody else
You have to have no way of ending it
Have you ever just felt what you felt
Then you have to accept that you’re the only one with the cards you’re dealt

But others feel the same
Even though their story is theirs
everybody’s broken so it’s hard to tell who cares
Did they grow up like your sister
that was always death threats and nightmares
She thought the ones that were mistreating her with the only ones that cared
You didn’t know how to help her all you know that life isn’t fair
But hearing her tell the stories was a bit too much to bear

Your mom was the evil one but she always needed a place to blame
It didn’t matter who it was, you or Dad ,it’s all the same

at least you can get away with it as she drives everyone insane
She never tried to help you
watched you put the needle in the vein

Your dad got sober with you
he hasn’t drank a beer since the journey begun
I couldn’t imagine being sober 

If i lost my only son
Are you still having to see it all
the terrible things she’s done
Your mom was slowly killing you
before your life begun

Your mother never loved you
and she stopped you’re heart for fun
I wonder if this was part of the plan
if this is what life was

No one else is going through it
But there’s some that can relate
I wish you were here to tell you
That the negative has a face
I’m finally gonna get through it
But for you I was to late
If I would have killed it sooner
Was there a way you could have stayed

Did you think that you would wake up
Was it your heart you wanted to stop
Did you finally hit Rock bottom
And you saw no way to the top
Did your mom let you put it in your vein
She said say I love you I love you not
You screamed for God to send a prayers
And I was all you got